Living with the news
Even though I had Gary, friends, family and a huge support network of
work colleagues, I felt alone even around people and that I was dealing with
this by myself. I wanted to tell everyone but I also wanted it to just go away
and not deal with it. I had no idea really what it meant because the word
“cancer” didn’t mean anything even when I said it out loud. I had no timeline
expectation, I didn’t know what the end result was going to be. I didn’t know
what chemotherapy even looked like. I knew I needed to find a reason for it, or
at least make it worthwhile.
The biggest thing for me was, 2 of my family members have been through
treatment in the last year, and I wasn’t there for them like they were for me
only just receiving the news. I felt incredibly bad about this and knew I
needed to make up for it.
I didn’t even think about death, because Cancer had not even sunk in
yet. All I had was a scan with white spots all over it, it meant nothing.
Little things like he sign below would inspire me though. i grabbed inspiration from anywhere i could.
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